Hi guys, i m having too much of tension and stree these days ! so i just need some of your ideas regarding my problem. Hopefully you'll give me suggestion ..Here's my problem.

I am a college girl and currently i am in United States. I have been in love with this guy when i was in Nepal and i still love him the same. Right now he is in Nepal, he is trying to come here but as he is applying for the Green Card(through his parents, they live in US for many years and they're US citizen), its taking a long time for getting all his paper works done. But whenever i talk to him over phone these days, we always fight..The way he talks is very different. Kehi kura garyo bhane pani maile nakkal garyo bhancha, i know couple of his girl friends(keti sathi) in Nepal, and he thinks that i m copying him..When i colored my hair today and sent him a picture, he says i m trying to follow Sapana(name changed)..I dont know why he treats me like that ? When i was talking with him on the phone, he said you're trying to talk like Sapana, maile nakkal gare re ? so these days i think if i get married to him, how is he gonna treat me like ? is he gonna treat me the same way he's doing right now ? I know i really like the guy and all my families and his families know abt our Love affairs, But at the same time, i am worried abt my future life....Tyo keta sanga bihe garyo bhane, ma khusi nai hudaina jasto lagcha malai...But i wanna get married to him. I feel like my life sucks. I feel like doing suicide these days, i always cry. Since there's no any Nepalese around my place or city, i live alone and that's what i think abt every single days, I can't take any decisions...What i really should do ? Its been like more than 3 years i m in US, i've been living by myself, i rarely go outside, i don't know any nepalese around the city, i feel like my Life Really Sucks...Ahile samma Driver's License pani lina sakeko chaina....ma k garu, kata jaun, I feel like crying every moment...Yeti dherai tension cha malai....I was majoring in Nursing but right now i changed to different subject and now its gonna take me another 3-4 Years,I've to study all the prerequisite...I changed my major cuz i though Nursing would be tough later....I've nobody to help me decide anything...So i came to know abt Sajha.com through one of my friend and i thought of posting my problem in here , so that i could get some feedbacks...Hopefully you guys will respond me with some ideas so that i can do much better in upcoming days.
Thanks a Lot..
Racheeta(somewhere in US.)

Rachetta!!!
dont b sad and depressed.Try to b strong and have faith in god.everything will b alright.focus in ur studies.

Racheeta,
Timro kura sunera ta hanso lagyo. timi sano sansar ma bancheko justo lagyo. US ma aayera aafno dream pura garna tira laga. Nothing will gonna happen after you will married also. Khutta chanjel jutta jati pani paincha. Don't even worry and don't even think about somebody if you don't like them. It doesn't matter if he is your boy freind or cousins whatever. Jasari aafu le sansar ma sochyo sansar testai huna aauncha. Timi lai tension dine manche sanga tada basa problem finished. Just do what you have to do. Don't think more than that

best of luck for your study .your study is most important then anything else.

Racheeta, Thats due to Distance relationship and Jealousy. Your BF might thinks that you are in USA and hanging around with many other guys thats why he treats you in this rude way. But why do u think too much about him? Just damn care about him...coz there is no any reasons to love him who doesn't love u.

Racheeta:

There are too many issues here. I second Catchengle's opinion. Life is bigger than anything else. You must be just 21-22.......you stll have so much to live. You are too young to think you are seriously in love and can die for this guy. FOCUS on your EDUCATION FIRST! Go to the local driving class and get your driver's liscence. YOU are in United States...not in Nepal... here you are self-sustained. There is no cultural/traditional backholding to your going out/dining out alone.....you know what i mean... you can go to movie alone and yet you feel safe here..you can go to dine alone and yet nobody will mock you...you can travel alone and nobody will raise their eyebrows. GET THE POINT???? Take all the good things that US offesr to you. Once you conquer your fears and loneliness....you will feel the strength to do anything you want in life. Meanwhile.... I may not suggest you to dump your BF...just try to look at things from his perspective too. He is there alone in familiar surroundings...in place where you used to be and now is VOID due to your absence....he has to live that emptyness everyday (that is if he truly loves you!).... sot that is only natural that he taunts you sometime....THAT IS HIS INSECURITY manifesting. For crying out LOUD...you are in a country which depicts herself as free and independent...and people in nepal also sees it as a country which has lots of moral vices. So, my point is....he is just feeling insecure and scared that he may lose you in all this web. He is being delusional. And when you colored your hair....he is more scared because he thinks you are coloring yourself in the colors of this society's fashion. My guess is.... you must have been pretty homely gal back in nepal...and he always perceived you as someone so pure and diffrent that all of his other "kety saathharu".... now that you took one step...and he fears you rea becoming them. THE KEY to this relationship would be understanding, clearing out misunderstanding, and CONVERSATION!! what you told us in sajha...tell him.... write to him if you cant say in so many words.....writing is very powerful. If he still does not understand,,,,, then this relationship may not be worth your emotions!

Email me if you would like to talk more.

I wish you all the best in whatever step you take....except for pushing yourself further down in the quicksand of melancholy!

haha Daddy, maybe jaane.

ke dincheu malai?